Sometimes I really think of going back to the church.
I have left the church since I was nineteen..
I guess because I didn't really have a great friend there and felt a bit bored..
When I pain from other parts, such as love, families and friends..
I think of God...
Thinkin' about my old church -- Grape Vineyard, Palo Alto, CA
With lots of brothers and sisters -- Aunts and uncles I mean
Lots of happiness happened at the moment when I was young
Now, I felt lonely..
No one to talk to
Especially, my best friends all live in foreign countries..
I always thought about going back to the church, but I didn't do that coz...
suddenly, I felt I didn't have courage to go back..
What to bring me there?
Sometimes I was too busy at work
not much time to be with God..
Sometimes I'm thinkin' of changing to other religious
Now, my life is such a mess
I dont' know what to do
I dont' know where to go
I'm really confused.
"Just do it" A slogon likes that
I know that I got so many excuses for not going to the church
seems like I'm escaping something
sounds like I'm afraid of facing God
God will forgive us
Whatever we do wrong...
Maybe I just need a good friend here in Taiwan
A really positive friend who may lead me to know Jesus again
but ...can I?
How can I be there?
How can I open my heart and pray for him?
I have no idea with that..
and I don't know what to do then...
I really enjoy the moment when Thanksgiving came..
Youth Group will do something positive and unforgitable things ever ..
but why I couldn't find my joy
someone to talk to
someone to pray for?
Maybe I just miss my friends so much
Maybe I just miss the place I stayed..
Yeah, I really miss Cupertino...Saratoga...any places I have been..
I really miss all of you, my friends..
I don't feel like there's no chance to go back
I feel so sick of this place
Why I have to come back?
Well, there's no answer for this......
I have thought about that for years
no result, no ideas
Can I just get out of here?
and will that be my freedom?